Juxtaposing My Clouded Mind With My Vibrant Heart.

     Imagine, if you will, a moment in time where you find yourself teeming with excitement and displeasure, all at the same time. Its as if an anvil came off the top of the Empire State Building, came speeding down and you're bracing a large impact, only to see it hit the ground softly and bounce off of it and lands upright. Yeah I know......you have no idea what the heck I'm talking about also haha


     Yesterday, I got together with some friends of mine: Adrian and Mike they're aptly named, and we began talking about ideas and potential projects for short films, web shorts and whatever else that could fill the cracks. But as we began to start building up some fluid conversation, I began to notice something very interesting about it all: I was starting to see the flaws that have inhabited my body for so long. This is what I noticed in simple, non entertaining bullets (arranged as a courtesy by Blogger lol):

• I was conjuring up far too many ideas.

• My lack of focus on one singular thing wasn't allowing me to give the attention a particularly good idea deserved.

• Allowing others equal time to give their say, or talking over people basically.

     So this was my dilemma essentially, that I wasn't giving my friends, and now my group partners, their say in what ideas or thoughts they had in mind. This is a problem that CAN be corrected, so with that in mind I have strategically put together with the help of some amazing orange gourmet soda:

• Jot down as many words as I can on paper that's in relation to fish.

• When brings up a great idea and I want to add to that immediately, before he even finishes the first word, non-chalantly put my fingers on top of my lips as if I'm merely observing.

• And finally, SHUT THE F*CK UP and let other people talk!!!

     So that's pretty much summing up my issues with last night, but I also understand we all have our own faults and flaws to address. But it doesn't mean those very flaws can also be molded, with the right tools, into great strengths as is. Being mindful of myself around others has always been problem for me, but I've gotten a lot better over the years. I just know that I'm progressing and that at some point, I will be right where I want to be with everything I need. We're down to do some exciting things, that's all I can really say.

     I leave you with this to think about.....

• Oranges are actually white when they're born, they just use bronzer and they end up like Cheetos.

If life could be buried, it should be on DVD: Part Two

     I realize that it's been over a year since I've written my first ever blog, and that is a total shame on my part. Consistency, I believe, makes for great results in any aspect of your life. This is no exception. My opportunity to share my thoughts, ideas, feelings and randomness to the world....and I seemingly wasted it with a vast period of procrastination. But no more: I will officially put a stop to that and declare my re-emergence. This is my renaissance, per sé, to all that I will share with the world.

     On my first blog, I wrote about my ambitions which were put onto a list. This list by many is something we have in our minds as things we would like to see done within our lifetime. Of course, mine is a very long one and to put it on my first ever blog would have been potential blogging suicide. Needless to say, I did post a portion of that list but just the ones I felt personally would impact me more in my life than anything else. 

     Now this brings me to the second instalment of this mini discussion: The "Top Ten" itself. I'll re-post that part right now for everyone to understand what I'm talking about since I took so long to write this second blog lol

1. Become the youngest director ever to receive an Academy Award. 
2. Be a good son, brother, and husband.
3. Graduate from one of the top Film Schools in the country with my MFA.
4. Meet the one woman who defines me, and my life.
5. Find a cure for prejudice.
6. Start my own Production Company.
7. Create a program or foundation that allows underprivileged children and young adults to purse the Creative Arts.
8. Design and build my Dream Home.
9. See all my siblings become married.
10. Travel the world towards my Top 10 (London, Tokyo, Australia, Cape Town, Brazil, India, Paris, Beijing, Rome, Egypt)

     I'm going to do my very best and explain my intentions with this "Top Ten" but II warn you all of the potentially random connections that you may encounter. Ok, here we go:

    

      "The dream I have is crazy, unrelenting and exaggerating for most but I want to become the youngest director ever to receive an Academy Award. Its true that my mind is intent on graduating from one of the best film schools in the country with an MFA in Directing, which would help in achieving that dream. Thereafter, I can finally start my own production company that will in turn proceed with the eventual construction of my "Dream Home". That company and home will be springboard for the not-for-profit- organization I start that will allow underprivileged children and young adults to pursue the creative and performing arts.

     While that all rests within my personal goals, I think beyond myself and would hope that through all of this that I be a good son, brother and eventually a husband. Seeing all siblings get married would be a loving triumph, and of course I hope that my time comes up with the one woman who defines me, and my life, through it all. With all these personal conquests in the books, I still have a gaping hole in heart and soul. That is why I must travel the world, to the likes of London, Tokyo, Australia, Cape Town (South Africa), Brazil, India, Paris, Beijing, Rome and Egypt. From there I want to experience and feel culture around me, and be enhanced by the many melting pots I would see before me. Understanding these very people in these varied regions, I can one day find a cure for the prejudice in the world." 

     

     It seems tall of a task, but nothing is tall unless of course you are tall yourself. We all talk to ourselves, giving out hints on what we could do next or what we should try out. Nothing is out of reach because your mind is constantly on the move, thus putting the pressure on you to make those moves happen. It really all comes down to your attitude, like I read in a book once, that determines what goals you've set can realistically happen. I talk chimneys and cherries like well wishers on ferries, but no matter what I speak what my heart tells me. I have it written down. Its all there for the taking, the ball is in my court....any other clichéd motivation to get you going, just roll with it. I certainly am, and I'm more excited than I could ever be to make this all happen.

     I want to leave you with a statement, and I will do this after every blog. You might understand what I'm saying....and then you might not. Either way, it probably got your attention.

• A squirrel and otter are classy. Imagine if they shared a rock....